WED 13TH Sept

Hope all are okay When I am confused

I push people away.

I have tried to connect locally but is just not going to happen.

Taking a deep breathe and retreating to my room.

Never to show my face again. I am safe, but lonely and bored. The good people I support on Facebook have realised that I am worthless as a supporter and am just hard work. Again retreating.

Suicide Prevention Week has opened my eyes to some stuff and some people. I am not afraid to talk suicide but I am sure that the talk upsets some. I am truly sorry for any that I have upset.

Thinking about all Med Certs issued for Mental Health Issues. Any F…ing follow up from Doc or Employer,!!!!!!! Research shows that these are the people killing themselves.

THE SYSTEM IS KILLING.

What to do ?

Listen to people. More than 15 mins or an hour. My greatest helper was a nurse who listened as she bandaged my foot. Respect individuals. All are different and have own stories. I have asked for support but they never last long as all want me to fit into a Pigeon Hole. Depression leads to Anger and Frustration. Self Loathing follows quickly as I accept the blame for things not working.

Thank you all who have supported me. If you have spoken to me, including online, you have made a difference.

REPEATING I AM SAFE

CONFUSED, DEPRESSED, ANGRY, Frustrated but I AM TRYING

Bloody Internet down now

Yours in Kindness

Cameron

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