Well, tomorrow is the day.
I stop being selfish and go to doctor.
Will I listen to them ?
I THINK I know what will be said. Take your pills and will help feel better. I will challenge them about things have to change. Why do I feel like this. Should I try hypnotherapy ?
I am lucky with the life I have. My daughter Bec and her husband Tom are great but all I can think about is getting out of their life before I stuff it up. I do not need to work so am lucky about that. I do know that have contributed to the world and can die knowing that I do not need to do more.
Have made serious mistakes in my life but fortunately only person hurt has been myself.
I just need to drop out of society and not disappoint anyone further. I struggle with conversation to anyone. I appreciate those that hace chatted online. Just feel so dumb. Good people in my online life. I let them down and feel unworthy of their friendship and their valuable time.
Politics in Australia causes me distress because people, young people, are being told BS being presented as fact.
All sides do similar and consistency of funding needs highlighting. The whole ‘ it was an Obama Policy so I will scrap it ‘ is poor. Legal protection is a must for all, so legal centres must have funding certainty. Domestic Violence refuges and safe houses must be funded.
The above distress me everyday, people in pain and struggling. The way we treat the poor is an indication of our society. Australia is woeful. We are a lucky country. We are.
I look around Globally, and the poor and opressed in PNG, Indonesia, Phillipines, Sri Lanka, India, Bangladesh, Myanmar, North Korea, Cambodia among others. Globalisation, Inequity, Politics needs to change so that the poor can change their personal circumstances and have hope in their own future. The war on drugs has also failed. Decriminalize Drugs and fund Recovery Beds.
Nothing new in the above. Fake News and Politics makes them all hard to find the truth. Life in this world has flushed out all hope from my existence.
I AM SAFE, but let me get off.
Yours in kindness