CJH SLEEP

Sleep and Me

Constant battle for me. Depression tells me that am tired. Everyday at around about 2pm I start nodding and holding my head up is a challenge. Anxiety keeps my mind turning over. Reviewing my mistakes of the day. Thinking about injustices that have occured in the world and the lies that Politicians have spread to spin the truth. Anger rises and does not help with sleep.

Physical pain also has its challenges. I do not and have not looked after myself. I have long term type 2 diabetes with Pain in feet and lots of old age pain, I walk with a walker and have bad balance after minor strokes. I really do little physical activity each day and I know that if I did sleep would be easier.

I know lots of people listen to the radio and I have tried that. Talkback soon makes me angry, tried nature sounds but for some reason they all include a crack of lightening which sends me off the bed. I have a few music albums that I do trust, Gurrumul is the most reliable. I do turn off all technology because I try to help people on a worldwide basis which means it is not midnight everywhere.

Sadly for my state of mind but it keeps my rent cheap, I have a nightclub across the street. They do challenge me, but not so much with volumn but with the sudden outbreak of laughter or the occasional burst of ‘Happy Birthday’ I concede that these make some happy but do startle me.

I do have pills to help me sleep but tis quitening my mind that is my failure. Trying to solve the worlds issues or at least to understand them. Last night I was obsessed about Trumps mental state and what to call it. The current discussion re sexual harassment i have yegt to get a handle on. As an old bald fat bloke sex has never been high in my life. Will talk about it on a blog soon.

I try to sleep around 10pm usually without sucess until after 12. Up and down to the loo through the night with Diabetes and finally concede the fight at 5am. Check Facebook that all is well then catch up on News from TV to see what the gameplayers in politics have been up to.

Sleepwise, I have had success with Audio Books and have enjoyed a few Peter Fitzsimmons tomes and am currently enjoying The Eureaka Stockade.

Trying some Lavender Aromatherapy at present

Most nights I stress about my relationship with my daughter which keeps my mind racing.

Well that is sleep and me, Next week will be Mindfulness week as this has helped me

The above is from the opening of a school in Uganda, very exciting

CJHFRIEND CAM

Sept Donations

This month I have made small donations to

  • Buhanga School
  • Indigenous Literacy Fund
  • ASRC
  • Soldier On
  • Sunshine Coast Fire
  • Barwon School

Feel comfortable with the above. Actions supporting my words and special people.

Judy Atkinson, Judy Williams, Marie Camporeale, Fiona McLennan, Tess Ryan, Meredith Newman Debens, Bec and Tom Guinane, Jamie and Rima Dalton, Margaret Hayes and Bronwyn Fredericks, Jane Skillcome, Vanessa Comiskey, have all been special to me this month.

Special mention to a couple of friends from Overseas,

Pamela Wood Mack, Jackie Mercer, Mary Vaughn Berthiaume, Charlene Sunkel.

A lady always on my mind and who keeps me behaving myself Thelma Phieffer

Monday 14th August

Wow a big weekend around home.

A tenant here asked me to open an outside door for her. Being my naive self I said yes. There was a guy waiting with her. Dropped a box and left. I yelled at him that I was not waiting at the same time letting her know I would. She slyly reached out and unlocked the latch and other people entered.

I let her know was not good form

A frjend at Sunshine Coast found a lady sitting on roadside in a lil shock, said her unit had burned. 2 children, Centrelink no help. I was very impressed with her kindness as helped the lady for a few days. The kindness of some people knows no bounds.

My Sunday Games session here again messed up. Just Rachel turned up as others were ill. Room had been double booked so just chatted with Rachel and went home. Discovered today that organisor had forgot to book room. I spent money organising bikkies and things but did not care. Losing enthusiasm for delivering activities.

Bec contacted re catching up so will happen on Wed Afternoon. Very concerned re parking and traffic but will see.

Had a smile on my dial today as a dear friend let me know had left husband.

Spent some time on weekend thinking about ” if I had wings, where would I fly to ” some very nice ladies posted and it was nice thinking about spending time in peace with others

Another friend had me remembering the Weis Mango Bar from Toowoomba. Has been to long but will hunt one down.

Health is not good but nobody cares.

Tis mostly self inflicted so no complaining. Onwards and Upwards.

The lady alone has got me thinking that just maybe …

Till tomorrow

Today I spent time researching Youth Detention and making contact with a few people working in this area. So much abuse and punishment and zero incentive to change and educate. Been the same system for 200 years and is time for change. Solitary Confinement has sgopped in USA but very common here. I do have sympathy for guards etc but it is abuse and just adds trauma to what is an already traumatic experience. Iceland is recognised for success in dealing with Adolescent Drug use. The Prison Culture of living and learning from peers usually leads teens astray.

Pensive time on Twitter discussing Angry Aboriginal Women. Read a ladies PHD submission and I have bumped into Angry women in First Nation Friend. As part of looking into Domestic Violence i saw the most common reason for Anger is abuse of personal rights and lord knows Aboriginal Womens Rights have been and still are abused. Aboriginal Women in leadership roles in my experience are awesome. Communicate well but take no rubbish

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NORTH KOREA has certainly got everyones attention. Turnbull has announced Oz will support USA if gets to war. Does seem strange he can announce we are going to war but not Same Sex Marriage. A couple of ex PMs have suggested we need a Nuclear Shield. I guess we have a target on us due to Pine Gap.

Ekka started in Brisbane today. Tis not a good time in the streets around my place. Fireworks tonight I guess. I hope to catch up with a few people attending the Ekka for a coffee

Helping a friend in Nambour. A lady with 2 children was sitting by the roadside after a fire in their unit. Lost everything and Welfare not helpful so my friend bought them some food. Next day ran around trying to get help. Charities helped a lil but the family needs a lot. My friend has been uncontactable today so guess is still running around. Family has food for the weekend and has been placed in a motel until thursday. Will see what the priorities are for Thursday.

Bought tickets to see a couple of shows at QPAC. Will be seeing Bennelong by Bangarra and also a Concert by Megan Washington

Will see what tomorrow brings. Bunnies won last night so will see what the Tigers can do. Broncos tonight. Getting warm here