CJH SLEEP

Sleep and Me

Constant battle for me. Depression tells me that am tired. Everyday at around about 2pm I start nodding and holding my head up is a challenge. Anxiety keeps my mind turning over. Reviewing my mistakes of the day. Thinking about injustices that have occured in the world and the lies that Politicians have spread to spin the truth. Anger rises and does not help with sleep.

Physical pain also has its challenges. I do not and have not looked after myself. I have long term type 2 diabetes with Pain in feet and lots of old age pain, I walk with a walker and have bad balance after minor strokes. I really do little physical activity each day and I know that if I did sleep would be easier.

I know lots of people listen to the radio and I have tried that. Talkback soon makes me angry, tried nature sounds but for some reason they all include a crack of lightening which sends me off the bed. I have a few music albums that I do trust, Gurrumul is the most reliable. I do turn off all technology because I try to help people on a worldwide basis which means it is not midnight everywhere.

Sadly for my state of mind but it keeps my rent cheap, I have a nightclub across the street. They do challenge me, but not so much with volumn but with the sudden outbreak of laughter or the occasional burst of ‘Happy Birthday’ I concede that these make some happy but do startle me.

I do have pills to help me sleep but tis quitening my mind that is my failure. Trying to solve the worlds issues or at least to understand them. Last night I was obsessed about Trumps mental state and what to call it. The current discussion re sexual harassment i have yegt to get a handle on. As an old bald fat bloke sex has never been high in my life. Will talk about it on a blog soon.

I try to sleep around 10pm usually without sucess until after 12. Up and down to the loo through the night with Diabetes and finally concede the fight at 5am. Check Facebook that all is well then catch up on News from TV to see what the gameplayers in politics have been up to.

Sleepwise, I have had success with Audio Books and have enjoyed a few Peter Fitzsimmons tomes and am currently enjoying The Eureaka Stockade.

Trying some Lavender Aromatherapy at present

Most nights I stress about my relationship with my daughter which keeps my mind racing.

Well that is sleep and me, Next week will be Mindfulness week as this has helped me

The above is from the opening of a school in Uganda, very exciting

CJHFRIEND CAM

Planning

I have been busy trying to organise things including myself. Starting with Websites. http://www.udeserverespect.com and http://www.humanrightsrangers.com both are up and running. I have also been busy starting a Global Peer Support Group for Mental Health

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Trying to Empower Mental Health Friend and also Recovery Friend

I have made some good friends but it is disappointing that I do not get to meet t hem all when they travel to Brisbane. Because I have been busy my own Mental Health has been good

I am trying to Colour my World with a group on Facebook. I use these beautiful pics to help with my mindfulness meditation

Just trying to do whatever I can to support groups in their battle for change

  • Abooriginal
  • Stand against Violence
  • Refugees just seeking truth

The webpages are up and running but not finalised. Will need to spend some money to set up some stationery.

Lots to do, and mant errors will be made.

To support some dear friends I am involved with Domestic Vioence on PNG and am learning lots re orceryRelated Violence.

Election is over here in Queensland. Hope means Politicians will tell truth. The election was the first with preferential voting and the vote count was hard to follow.

Australia won the first Ashes Test today. First time in 40 years that have not followed on ABC Radio. I get confusdd with commefcial rights just where to find sport in Qld

Classroom has official Opening in Buhanga, Uganda. Very exciting there and I am thrilled. Together We Learn. Thank you Merry and Kerry for your help and support

 

 

 

 

Sunday 17th September

Well, tomorrow is the day.

I stop being selfish and go to doctor.

Will I listen to them ?

I THINK I know what will be said. Take your pills and will help feel better. I will challenge them about things have to change. Why do I feel like this. Should I try hypnotherapy ?

I am lucky with the life I have. My daughter Bec and her husband Tom are great but all I can think about is getting out of their life before I stuff it up. I do not need to work so am lucky about that. I do know that have contributed to the world and can die knowing that I do not need to do more.

Have made serious mistakes in my life but fortunately only person hurt has been myself.

I just need to drop out of society and not disappoint anyone further. I struggle with conversation to anyone. I appreciate those that hace chatted online. Just feel so dumb. Good people in my online life. I let them down and feel unworthy of their friendship and their valuable time.

Politics in Australia causes me distress because people, young people, are being told BS being presented as fact.

All sides do similar and consistency of funding needs highlighting. The whole ‘ it was an Obama Policy so I will scrap it ‘ is poor. Legal protection is a must for all, so legal centres must have funding certainty. Domestic Violence refuges and safe houses must be funded.

The above distress me everyday, people in pain and struggling. The way we treat the poor is an indication of our society. Australia is woeful. We are a lucky country. We are.

I look around Globally, and the poor and opressed in PNG, Indonesia, Phillipines, Sri Lanka, India, Bangladesh, Myanmar, North Korea, Cambodia among others. Globalisation, Inequity, Politics needs to change so that the poor can change their personal circumstances and have hope in their own future. The war on drugs has also failed. Decriminalize Drugs and fund Recovery Beds.

Nothing new in the above. Fake News and Politics makes them all hard to find the truth. Life in this world has flushed out all hope from my existence.

I AM SAFE, but let me get off.

Yours in kindness

Cameron Harris

Xoxoxoxo

Tears Today

Tears galore on this day.

The tragedy of the Rohingas is all over twitter today. But just what can I do.

Thoughts are with them and with the UN. Countries in the region seem to want not to get involved. Myanmarr Army has the strength. It does seem that some Rohingas are stirring up trouble, perhaps understandably. World gone made. There are other civil wars, South Sudan for eg. Has been lots of talking followed by lots of killing. My heart goes out to the women and kids innocently sacrificed by Men, yes Men who think they are proving their manhood, Rape and Killing. Tears flooding as I type these words. Only hope is Suu Kyi can stand strong in support of her Country women and Country Kids. Politics often needs a long game to bring change. All religions support compassion and forgiveness.

Empty words, SCREAMING in Anger ..

Clinton Pryor has walked from Perth to Canberra, listening to people. What a fantastic effort !!! He is also a man worth listening to. I am extremely disappointed that all Australians did not Embrace his story and his message. Shameful exclusion in Mainstream Media. However this is a perfect example to students, young an old, of Media manipulating truth. A true hero puts himself out there, no protection just talking justice, Justice for Elijah and Justice for Ms Dhu. Both very sad stories that ended with young australian death. This is not only an indigenous story. Think about Manus, lives abused and lost because Dutton and those in power abuse the law, systematic criminal behavior. Has been found guilty in Australia and PNG. O’Neill has been reelected so deal has been concluded. UN will step up maybe, these guys cannot come to Australia or PNG and these guys must go somewhere. An Immigration Centre somewhere .. just treated fairly, god tears again … the supposedly good guys using violence and cruelty to suppress humans. That is the way that were treated in homelands and in desperation turned to boats. AAAGGGGHHHH

Australia needs more men like Clinton and perhaps the Makarrata process of Truth Telling and Peace is the way forward. Clinton is an example of doing the hard work that it is necessary for Australia to grow. Australia must change, must support all people, fairly and with justice. ALL PEOPLE, NOT MINORITIES, NOT THE POOR. or is that democracy