PNG

Quote from a friend

How many lives have to be sacrificed, through lack of basic human rights and basic services, to bolster the pride of some leaders through “status” projects like South Pacific Games and APEC?

Papua New Guineans are dying like flies; old, young, children, babies, mamas; because of the lack of even the most basic health services.

In the Human Development Index, PNG is ranked 154/188.
40% of our population is under the age of 14 years.
Infant Mortality Rate is 58/1000
Maternal Mortality Rate is 733/100,000
Gender Equity Index PNG is ranked 143/157
Only 28.6% of the population have access to potable water
Churches run about half of the Health and Education systems
PNG’s Human Development Index ranking is only above Timor Leste and Afghanistan in the Asia/Pacific region

How much was spent on staging the South Pacific Games? How much will hosting APEC cost the nation?
How many lives would that save if invested in our human capital, through basic health services?

How can priorities be so “off”?
Peoples lives are more valuable than prestige for a few…….surely!

As the sun went down yesterday, so did the life of a beautiful young man who died because PNG does not have adequate health services even in the capital Port Moresby. A young wife and little daughter now left heartbroken and alone.

For what? Smart buildings!

Those who make the decisions on priority spending will never face the loss and grief of this young family, because they all have access to world class health facilities overseas when they, or their family, get sick.

While the majority dig holes and bury their dead, the fat cats live in luxury.

CJH SLEEP

Sleep and Me

Constant battle for me. Depression tells me that am tired. Everyday at around about 2pm I start nodding and holding my head up is a challenge. Anxiety keeps my mind turning over. Reviewing my mistakes of the day. Thinking about injustices that have occured in the world and the lies that Politicians have spread to spin the truth. Anger rises and does not help with sleep.

Physical pain also has its challenges. I do not and have not looked after myself. I have long term type 2 diabetes with Pain in feet and lots of old age pain, I walk with a walker and have bad balance after minor strokes. I really do little physical activity each day and I know that if I did sleep would be easier.

I know lots of people listen to the radio and I have tried that. Talkback soon makes me angry, tried nature sounds but for some reason they all include a crack of lightening which sends me off the bed. I have a few music albums that I do trust, Gurrumul is the most reliable. I do turn off all technology because I try to help people on a worldwide basis which means it is not midnight everywhere.

Sadly for my state of mind but it keeps my rent cheap, I have a nightclub across the street. They do challenge me, but not so much with volumn but with the sudden outbreak of laughter or the occasional burst of ‘Happy Birthday’ I concede that these make some happy but do startle me.

I do have pills to help me sleep but tis quitening my mind that is my failure. Trying to solve the worlds issues or at least to understand them. Last night I was obsessed about Trumps mental state and what to call it. The current discussion re sexual harassment i have yegt to get a handle on. As an old bald fat bloke sex has never been high in my life. Will talk about it on a blog soon.

I try to sleep around 10pm usually without sucess until after 12. Up and down to the loo through the night with Diabetes and finally concede the fight at 5am. Check Facebook that all is well then catch up on News from TV to see what the gameplayers in politics have been up to.

Sleepwise, I have had success with Audio Books and have enjoyed a few Peter Fitzsimmons tomes and am currently enjoying The Eureaka Stockade.

Trying some Lavender Aromatherapy at present

Most nights I stress about my relationship with my daughter which keeps my mind racing.

Well that is sleep and me, Next week will be Mindfulness week as this has helped me

The above is from the opening of a school in Uganda, very exciting

CJHFRIEND CAM

Sept Donations

This month I have made small donations to

  • Buhanga School
  • Indigenous Literacy Fund
  • ASRC
  • Soldier On
  • Sunshine Coast Fire
  • Barwon School

Feel comfortable with the above. Actions supporting my words and special people.

Judy Atkinson, Judy Williams, Marie Camporeale, Fiona McLennan, Tess Ryan, Meredith Newman Debens, Bec and Tom Guinane, Jamie and Rima Dalton, Margaret Hayes and Bronwyn Fredericks, Jane Skillcome, Vanessa Comiskey, have all been special to me this month.

Special mention to a couple of friends from Overseas,

Pamela Wood Mack, Jackie Mercer, Mary Vaughn Berthiaume, Charlene Sunkel.

A lady always on my mind and who keeps me behaving myself Thelma Phieffer

Sunday 17th September

Well, tomorrow is the day.

I stop being selfish and go to doctor.

Will I listen to them ?

I THINK I know what will be said. Take your pills and will help feel better. I will challenge them about things have to change. Why do I feel like this. Should I try hypnotherapy ?

I am lucky with the life I have. My daughter Bec and her husband Tom are great but all I can think about is getting out of their life before I stuff it up. I do not need to work so am lucky about that. I do know that have contributed to the world and can die knowing that I do not need to do more.

Have made serious mistakes in my life but fortunately only person hurt has been myself.

I just need to drop out of society and not disappoint anyone further. I struggle with conversation to anyone. I appreciate those that hace chatted online. Just feel so dumb. Good people in my online life. I let them down and feel unworthy of their friendship and their valuable time.

Politics in Australia causes me distress because people, young people, are being told BS being presented as fact.

All sides do similar and consistency of funding needs highlighting. The whole ‘ it was an Obama Policy so I will scrap it ‘ is poor. Legal protection is a must for all, so legal centres must have funding certainty. Domestic Violence refuges and safe houses must be funded.

The above distress me everyday, people in pain and struggling. The way we treat the poor is an indication of our society. Australia is woeful. We are a lucky country. We are.

I look around Globally, and the poor and opressed in PNG, Indonesia, Phillipines, Sri Lanka, India, Bangladesh, Myanmar, North Korea, Cambodia among others. Globalisation, Inequity, Politics needs to change so that the poor can change their personal circumstances and have hope in their own future. The war on drugs has also failed. Decriminalize Drugs and fund Recovery Beds.

Nothing new in the above. Fake News and Politics makes them all hard to find the truth. Life in this world has flushed out all hope from my existence.

I AM SAFE, but let me get off.

Yours in kindness

Cameron Harris

Xoxoxoxo

WED 13TH Sept

Hope all are okay When I am confused

I push people away.

I have tried to connect locally but is just not going to happen.

Taking a deep breathe and retreating to my room.

Never to show my face again. I am safe, but lonely and bored. The good people I support on Facebook have realised that I am worthless as a supporter and am just hard work. Again retreating.

Suicide Prevention Week has opened my eyes to some stuff and some people. I am not afraid to talk suicide but I am sure that the talk upsets some. I am truly sorry for any that I have upset.

Thinking about all Med Certs issued for Mental Health Issues. Any F…ing follow up from Doc or Employer,!!!!!!! Research shows that these are the people killing themselves.

THE SYSTEM IS KILLING.

What to do ?

Listen to people. More than 15 mins or an hour. My greatest helper was a nurse who listened as she bandaged my foot. Respect individuals. All are different and have own stories. I have asked for support but they never last long as all want me to fit into a Pigeon Hole. Depression leads to Anger and Frustration. Self Loathing follows quickly as I accept the blame for things not working.

Thank you all who have supported me. If you have spoken to me, including online, you have made a difference.

REPEATING I AM SAFE

CONFUSED, DEPRESSED, ANGRY, Frustrated but I AM TRYING

Bloody Internet down now

Yours in Kindness

Cameron